yeah yeah yeeeeeeeeeeeee

He will tell you too much of his love for you.

Eventually becomes the one who is obsessed.

"Hey just calling to say hi".
"Hey where are you?, haven't you gotten my messages?"
"Why are you ignoring me!!!"
"You don't care about me at all do you?"
"I always end up alone."

You like dramatic situations, but his "drama" is not the drama that you like.
His drama is the kind that men like him bring into a perfectly good relationship, for what I don't know.

He will go from silent treatment when you did nothing to warrant it, to coming back and trying to get you to like him again, to maybe not succeeding as fast as last time.

And because you aren't pacifying him, he becomes a sad man who is being hurt by you or goes back to the silent treatment to punish you.

Once you have decided to leave off a romantic relationship with him, he will reappear after having not been in touch for weeks or months, contacting you to begin his games again.

He is overly sweet and attentive, then he abandons.

Then you realize you would rather be single because it's beginning to bore you, he's a poor excuse for the grand love that you deserve.


Too moody romantically; he either doesn't know what he wants or he is afraid of what he desperately wants emotionally.
You will think he is annoying you with his games.


You may just end up playing with him, emotionally like a trifle, because he keeps contacting you, while you have moved on.

與人相處難免有些摩擦，
或許是我的個性本來就不喜歡管別人做什麼，
被別人管了難免覺得委屈。

總覺得自己給了別人較多的自由，
別人卻忘了我是怎樣讓他們呼吸，
而用那些養分反過來約束我，
最近越來越覺得自己這樣的個性否有些自虐。

大家是真看不見，
還是心知肚明但有口難言，
最近越來越分不清。
畢竟有些事招人注目的程度超越鼻頭上的青春痘，
仿佛紅燈閃爍，
閃得那麼亮，
閃得那麼急。


不知這些負面終究會被排出體外，
還是沈澱在體內，
要全面銷毀還是保留痕跡。
上傳一張照片或許需要一分鐘，
刪除卻不到一秒，
人生卻恰好相反。
你可以瞬間掉入陷入沈浸一段關係一網人際，
花上超越一輩子的時間卻也刪不掉刮不清。

迷戀的是回憶本身還是當時著迷的自己。

有些慚愧有些無法面對，
好久沒有寫些東西，
總覺得每天流動的心思情緒想法都被浪費，
好多時候，
是需要歷史才能保住回憶的。

好像注定要在人與事業之間掙扎，
現實不斷在美國與台灣之間交替角色，
有時實在不清自己的角色到底要如何拿捏，
過多的貪心過多的糾結，
覺得自己常被生活淹沒，
該怎麼想，
該不該想．
想了再多也不通。

真的好難拿捏，
在夢想理想與現實之間，
我們都希望可以點到超級全餐，
但會不會最後都只能單點。

許下的諾言就是欠下的債，

給我一個好債主。

男生送自己喜歡的東西給女生，
女生送男生喜歡的東西給男生。


明白了一些事。

I always wait for the longest day of the year and then miss it.


我們都希望自己是Gatsby, 但最後都變成了Daisy.

有人說胎記是前世傷，
讓我終於為右臉頰的一大片胎記想到了個解釋，
我想我上輩子大概是嚼口香糖，
吹了個大泡泡破在臉上，
結果怎麼也撥不開泡泡結果被悶死。

難怪我這輩子覺得最噁心的味道就是薄荷。

兩人同去吃飯，
一人總付十塊，
另一人總只付五塊，
感情再好，
久了，
不是被那多出來的五塊撐破，
就是被那少了的五塊掏空。



不是計較，
只是認知不同，
沒什麼好難過。

我想世間的定律就是如此吧。


為何熱戀中的人總是如此惹人嫌？
給彼次太多愛了，
反射到他人身上的時候只生出了怨，
就別再讓那怨生成恨了吧，


我想這就是物極必反。



長越大越得提醒自己，
感謝生命中的賤人，
因為他們讓我更明白其他人的好。



跟畫畫老師談話，
勵志到少女的眼油都在眼眶打轉，
尤其是看到老師翻白眼的那剎那，
最令人心滿意足的認同就是這個了吧，


我想這就是否極泰來。

是勇敢的一年！！！

最近好常自我檢討，
到底問題出在哪裡。

到最後就是一直在原地畫圈，
一堆把自己圍住的圈圈。




（這篇文章發出的那一刻！）

但很多時候就是需要別人的肯定來證明自己的價值。